wishful rayne..ing

1. 6
   Jan
   

   This upcoming Lent…

   My sister asked me what I was planning on giving up on.. there was nothing that I can think of until I was sitting down at work writing how much alcohol I was going to buy this Thursday.. it was almost freaking $150 for FOUR freaking people.. hell no. Then it clicked. I’ll give up alcohol. Psh, Alex shot down that possibility so fast. Such a non-believer, ahaha. Eh, maybe I’ll be able to this one. It’s not like I drink every week.. just whenever there’s a 21th birthday.. but now everyone’s 21. so no more drinking hard for a while. anywho. just thought i’d randomly post.
   
   and ugh, there are unread messages on my old phone and i cant even open it to see who they’re from -__- this is what i get for breaking my phone like days before Christmas then JUST NOW getting a phone. ohwell. mk outs.
2. 26
   Dec
   

   new phone!

   FINALLY. i can see that i have unread messages.. but i cant open them. i see the first few words on the inbox review… but that’s all. so yeah, its time for a new phone :] can’t wait to chose it tomorrow.

   yee.
   new hair cut
   new car
   new phone
   new… year
   
   yekno, even though the only time i ever log on here is to complain about something.. this year has been good. despite all of the “bad horrible” things that i only write about, there has been a lot of wonderful things from this year. and i hope that next year will be even better
   
   
3. 26
   Dec
   
   contest time at work ♥
4. 26
   Dec
   
   

   awh, it’s my car! i miss my car! lol they were my “training wheels”
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   26
   Dec
   
   

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   26
   Dec
   
   

   jenmmartinez:

   “I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night.” — Galileo

   (via niightwolf)
7. 26
   Dec
   

   Oh, Christmas…

   It was almost like a bittersweet feeling. Seeing the kids happy getting all the gifts they got but then seeing the expression on my mom’s face when the kids saw what they got from someone else instead from her. My sister’s friend gave each of them a roundtrip ticket to new york. omgosh, i wanted to cry when i saw my mom’s face from happy to just.. [dotdotdot] after the get together she was talking to me about how she couldnt get anything big for the family. sigh.

   maybe next year i’ll buy my parents a ticket to go somewhere to relax and just see the world. i’ll need to save A LOT of money for this one. i guess the apartment is going to need to wait again. unless i can finally get the permanent job at the hospital. that would be nice. then i can afford a good ticket for my parents, my car payment AND rent for an apartment. working three jobs just isn’t cutting the line anymore. stupid school and having to pay back for loans and my tuition. anyways this was supposed to be a happy note. maybe the next post.
   
   
8. 18
   Dec
   

   i would redo those years all over again just to make things right. i feel like i’ve been wasting these past few years for nothing. i’m just done with feeling stuck underneath a glass ceiling. when am i going to break through?
9. 4
   Dec
   

   yekno, lets do a year rundown… its not really the end of the year but that the heck. i never really get on this thing anymore. but i’ll include december next year.. too early in the month.
   
   january hm, the horrible finding out of eric and him talking to other… men… with their exchanging of photos (makes me wonder why i’m still even friends with him) that month was a rough month, for both of us… and for the friends that knew about that
   
   feburary march april honestly these months are a blur.. i can’t remember what in the heck happened.
   
   may a coworker happened. that’s what happened… he knew that i has a crush on him… then i was stupid and fell for his trap, in which later got “slapped” across the face and woke up feeling like shit.
   
   june the awkward proposal from bestie, the heated confusion between coworker and me and the reintroduction of ex into my life again.

   july henry, one year. interesting how long ago that was, but yet that still runs through my mind like it was just the other day…

   august uhm. nothing really jumps out from this month…. lol
   
   september ugh, stupid boys. aries, eric, henry, alex… complicated my 21th birthday month. me falling for aries’ little plans…again, eric joining me in Seattle, henry and me just being what ever the heck henry and i are and alex reminding me about something that i havent even answered to.. even to this day… i haven’t even told him yes or no.. *sighhh
   
   october heck… candy. that’s all i can recall from that month
   
   november thanksgiving with eric in the morning with my family.. then later henry joins for the night, right after eric leaves to go home.. so… yeah. weird. but what was even more weird.. was going home with henry and waking up at 5 in the morning and henry telling me that eric was outside of the house on black friday.. o_O

   this saturday something worth making note of. kien’s 21th birthday. met a few new people. that was fun. drank. a lot…. randy threw up! first time EVER seeing him getting that gone! omgosh… then uhm.. yeah making johnathan hella drink then him almost throwing up.. poor kid.. then david telling me that he’s always liked me then attempted to kiss me o_O that was hella… uhm, awkward. randy fell asleep first.. we all drew on him. AHAHA hm yeah. fell asleep at 5 woke up at 645 then work at 8am. and that has basically been my year.
   
   oh happy 2012.
   anyways its been a long week… work starts in a few hours, sooo outs.
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